“oh um ok hm?” she noticed someone was at the door (KitKat is home) “who could that be?” she wondered (i just really wanna rp)
It was Coder! He seemed a bit worried though.
“oh Coder how ya doin” she said “you ok?” she questioned
“Oh yes I’m ok. I just wanted to tell you that Hacker’s old crush has come back from overseas so you may not see Hacker much.” Coder explained.
“oh really” shams said unnerving “WAIT WHAT?!” shams said “can we talk in private for a moment cuz i am scared if Hacker might oh geez…” she said
“Oh ok.” Coder nodded. “Sure we can talk.”
she sat him and herself on the couch “ya see after…after an incident with Hacker and KitKat, KitKat has been unstable and has been….having nightmares of losing Hacker and his almost cut himself i’m pretty sure he has and believe me if Hacker is gone from KitKat’s life i’m afraid what might happen to him” she said looking down with teary eyes
Coder sat in thought. He knew what it was like to spiral into that space. “Let me talk to him.” Coder told Shams.
“ok “ shams agreed
Coder walked to KitKat’s room and softly knocked on the door. “KitKat, are you in there?”
“HUH C-coming” he said rushing a little to the door “oh c-coder c-come in “ KitKat said a little nervous
Coder walked into KitKat’s room. “We need to talk.” He said softly but calmly.
“oh what about?” KitKat said
“Shams told me that after the…incident with you and Hacker you almost cut yourself.” Coder started. “I won’t tell you the other news because first you need to be mentally stable.” Coder looked directly into KitKat’s eyes. “I need you to show me if you have cut at all.” He seemed pretty serious about this.
KitKat’s eyes widened “i..i..” he started to cry “i-i……” he cried even harder “I HAVE PLEASE I-I’M SORRY” he cried
Coder softly tugged KitKat to his bed. He then gently made KitKat sit down. “KitKat, I need you to show me.” Coder repeated gently as he wiped away KitKat’s tears.
“o-ok” he said as he pulled up both of his sleeves to reveal many cuts on his arms “th-there’s more…”he pulled up his outfit to show even more scars
Coder waved his hand and produced bandages. “I’m going to wrap your scars ok? After that I want you to always talk to someone when you feel the need to cut. Understand?” His voice never changed from soft and calm.
“o-ok” he sniffled
Coder started to gently wrap KitKat’s cuts. He was humming as well. A soft yet unfamiliar tune.
KitKat smiled softly
Coder smiled at KitKat once he was finished. “There. All done.”
“th-thank you” he said softly “b-but um i-i want to…c-could i c-come over i have something important to tell m-master” KitKat said
Coder nodded. “Yeah of course.” He smiled. “I don’t believe Zabel is around and Hacker’s other friend isn’t here yet. So Hacker should be around.”
“yay..huh?” KitKat saw a portal leading to their home he knew it was shams he smiled softly
Coder walked through the portal. “Hacker should be upstairs in his room. You remember which room?”
“y-yes i do “ he walked upstairs to Hackers room and knocked quietly
“Coming!” A tired voice called before Hacker opened the door. “Oh Hey there KitKat!” He smiled.
“H-hello ma-….H-Hacker I have something to tell you” KitKat said
Hacker was immediately worried. “Come on in.” Hacker told him letting him inside.
KitKat walked in and sat done on his bed he whimpered before showing Hacker his cuts all of them…
Hacker was silent. His eyes looking over him looking at each individual cut. He then collapsed into his chair next to his desk an arm over his face. “Why?” He just had to know. “Why didn’t you tell me? Do you not trust me?”
“I-I do trust it’s just that” he started to cry “I DONT FORGIVE MYSELF ” KitKat cried “I-I’m sorry I just….I just don’t I…I’m sorry you hate me don’t you” KitKat said “I don’t even understand why you gave me a chance I’m just a little shit who needs to die” KitKat said crying more
A low but audible growl left from Hacker’s mouth. “I don’t hate you.” He started trying to keep calm removing his arm from his face. He then looked at KitKat. “Don’t ever refer to yourself as a ‘little shit’ ever again.” He then sighed. “The incident was not your fault. You are young and didn’t understand how to fully express how you felt. That’s why I gave you another chance.” Hacker rubbed his face. “You don’t need to die. You need to slow down. You might not even be in love with me. You just need to slow down and fully expirience life.” Hacker told him as he got up and wiped away KitKat’s tears.
“b-but my o-old master i-i-i…”he cried
Hacker stared at KitKat with understanding in his eyes. “KitKat. Look at me.” Hacker told him as he took off his shirt.
“h-huh i just i..”he sniffled “i don’t know what to do i-i can’t” he whimpered
“Look. At. Me.” Hacker told him again more firmly. He doesn’t normally show off his scars.
KitKat’s eyes widened he didn’t expect this “H-Hacker i-i…” KitKat just cried
Hacker kneeled down to KitKat’s level and wiped away his tears. “The past is in the past. Nothing your ‘old master’ said to you will change what I think of you or what your friends think of you. You matter. You are special. You have the right to live. Do you understand me?” Hacker told him. His method of comforting was different from Coder’s.
“th-thank you “ he said
Hacker shook his head. “Don’t worry about it. I’m here for you. As are your friends.” Hacker smiled before pulling back on his shirt. “From those bandages I can tell Coder wrapped them for you. That’s good.”
“M-master” he smiled softly he looked away blushing
Hacker looked at KitKat in confusion. “Yeah?”
“I-I…I know that I do love you and I just want to snuggle with you all day and..and…”. He paused before letting out a sqeal his face was all red “ I I DIDNT MEAN T-TO SAY THAT OUT LOUD”
Hacker stared at KitKat. ‘Geez.’ He thought. “KitKat-” He was cut off by insane laughter and a crash. He paused.
“H-huh wh-what was that?” KitKat said a little flushed
Hacker closed his eyes and sighed. “Zabel. An alternate version of me.” He seemed reluctant too talk about him.
“A-another master?” KitKat was confused
“Kind of. Zabel is completely insane. Also-” Hacker was cut off by Zabel opening the door. How was a mystery with his arm being in his straight jacket. Hacker turned to look at Zabel. “Zabel.”
KitKat stares at Zabel he made a confused cat face
Zabel looked between KitKat and Hacker in confusion. “This is not the right room. There’s no pancakes!” Zabel muttered. Hacker muttered in annoyance. “Zabel, this is my room. Not the kitchen.” Zabel’s visible eye brightened before he rushed downstairs.
“Um…I um I have no words” KitKat said in confusion
“Like I said. Zabel’s completely insane.” Hacker laughed slightly.
“Oh I hope his ok “ KitKat said worried about his health
An awkward silence comes up. Hacker doesn’t have anything to say with him still needing to figure out his own feelings.
“I-I’m sowwy if I made this weird I sh-should go h-home” KitKat said a little flushed
“You didn’t make it weird. I just…I have a lot to figure out too. With an old crush coming back from overseas, work, and my personal life. I’m a bit stressed. So don’t worry.” Hacker explained with a smile.
“O-old cr….” KitKat got up with little tears in his eyes “I-i’ll go now you have better things to do” KitKat said with a shaky voice as he walk to the door
Hacker quickly grabbed KitKat. “Before you do anything you regret listen to me. “Old means in the past right? That’s what it is. An old childhood crush. That means I’m over it.” Hacker slowly let go. “Don’t let me be the cause of your pain. Like I said before, slow down and enjoy life.”
“Then why haven’t I gotten over my pain….” KitKat said
“I don’t know. Maybe the same reason why I haven’t gotten over mine. Why I bury myself into my work. Why I try to make my family happily. I just don’t know.” Hacker sighed again falling back into his chair.
“I’m sorry master I just…I’m sorry if I make you feel sad” KitKat said
“You don’t make me feel sad. The past does. So don’t worry.” Hacker told him.
“….”KitKat was silent before rushing into Hacker and giving him a tight hug
Hacker was startled before he hugged KitKat back.
KitKat kissed Hacker’s cheek “thank you master you make me feel happy” KitKat said with a soft and friendly smile
Hacker smiled back. It was a friendly smile. “No problem KitKat.”
(Ok I should be going to sleep so GN )
(night)
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